Some things in life really tick me off...like the fact that I just about had this post finished when BOOM it disappears!
I got a call from my sister Friday while out shopping for new work clothes. She seemed frantic...which if you know my sister is nothing new. Everything either bugs her or scares her.
Today though it seemed real. My niece, her 22 year old daughter came home with a pregnancy test..that was positive. I said...YEA you're going to be a grandma!! Coolness! She says no! I repeat after her NO? Then I think WHY THE HELL DID YOU EVEN TELL ME?
I always thought I was pro-choice. And in some instances I am. Incest, rape, health of baby. But "not ready" isn't one of the reasons in my book.
When my sister was pregnant with my niece she had an appointment to get an abortion. She now claims she didn't. I remember all to well writing her a letter begging and pleading for her to think about what she was doing? That she wasn't getting rid of a problem she was killing my niece, my mom's grandchild, etc. I got through to her, although now she remembers it differently. Two years later she got pregnant again and had an abortion. We didn't talk for a long time after that.
Maybe that's why she was looking for me to try to talk to my niece. Maybe she felt like a hypocrite to say don't do it, since she had. She says she told her she would help her with the baby but it was her choice! She said she didn't want her regretting having the baby someday and blaming her. For saying that I'm mad at my sister. If it were my child about to make a huge mistake I would have begged and pleaded for the life of my grandchild. I told her once a baby is born there is no regret, the regret comes from never giving that baby a chance. She hasn't told her 12 year old daughter what her older sister has done. Says she'd never forgive her.
I guess my sister and brother-in-law had to take my niece to the hospital today. She took the abortion pill and something about her throwing up a while after taking it. My younger niece was im'ing me earlier asking what was up? No one would answer questions and she's a very smart young lady. I said I didn't know and she should enjoy being home alone...and she laughed. If they lie and tell her that she had a miscarriage I will be even more mad. My niece does not deserve any pity...she made her choice and if people are mad at her because of it then so be it. When she confronts me about it someday...and I will be avoiding her for her own sake...I will be honest. I will tell her I love her but the selfish decision she made affected everybody. I'll tell her that when Alex was 6 months old and I found out I was pregnant again I could have easily said ...no way I don't want to be pregnant again...and if I had, Lauren wouldn't have been born to complete my family. Regret having a baby?? Never.
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. First days are always boring and this one was that for sure. People are nice and sincere..not fake nice. The A/P man who I found out is the owner's brother-in-law plays the harmonica on his breaks.. 
take the good with the bad, and enjoy the ride!
