Some things in life really tick me off...like the fact that I just about had this post finished when BOOM it disappears!
I got a call from my sister Friday while out shopping for new work clothes. She seemed frantic...which if you know my sister is nothing new. Everything either bugs her or scares her. Today though it seemed real. My niece, her 22 year old daughter came home with a pregnancy test..that was positive. I said...YEA you're going to be a grandma!! Coolness! She says no! I repeat after her NO? Then I think WHY THE HELL DID YOU EVEN TELL ME?
I always thought I was pro-choice. And in some instances I am. Incest, rape, health of baby. But "not ready" isn't one of the reasons in my book.
When my sister was pregnant with my niece she had an appointment to get an abortion. She now claims she didn't. I remember all to well writing her a letter begging and pleading for her to think about what she was doing? That she wasn't getting rid of a problem she was killing my niece, my mom's grandchild, etc. I got through to her, although now she remembers it differently. Two years later she got pregnant again and had an abortion. We didn't talk for a long time after that.
Maybe that's why she was looking for me to try to talk to my niece. Maybe she felt like a hypocrite to say don't do it, since she had. She says she told her she would help her with the baby but it was her choice! She said she didn't want her regretting having the baby someday and blaming her. For saying that I'm mad at my sister. If it were my child about to make a huge mistake I would have begged and pleaded for the life of my grandchild. I told her once a baby is born there is no regret, the regret comes from never giving that baby a chance. She hasn't told her 12 year old daughter what her older sister has done. Says she'd never forgive her.
I guess my sister and brother-in-law had to take my niece to the hospital today. She took the abortion pill and something about her throwing up a while after taking it. My younger niece was im'ing me earlier asking what was up? No one would answer questions and she's a very smart young lady. I said I didn't know and she should enjoy being home alone...and she laughed. If they lie and tell her that she had a miscarriage I will be even more mad. My niece does not deserve any pity...she made her choice and if people are mad at her because of it then so be it. When she confronts me about it someday...and I will be avoiding her for her own sake...I will be honest. I will tell her I love her but the selfish decision she made affected everybody. I'll tell her that when Alex was 6 months old and I found out I was pregnant again I could have easily said ...no way I don't want to be pregnant again...and if I had, Lauren wouldn't have been born to complete my family. Regret having a baby?? Never.
It's just a front office clerical position for a small manufacturing company. But the pay starts off $5.00 more an hour than the hospital position and it's only 8.5 miles away!!! I'm so happy I could cry!!
No time for tears, I've got to go get paperwork to get the drug screen!! Yeah yeah yea!!! I start Monday 8:30 - 5:00!!
Thanks to all of you who have been praying for me!!
I tell my husband and kids everyday how much I love them and show them very often by doing things for them like baking them something, writing them a note, or just giving them hugs & kisses everyday. Do I feel a need for a "special" day or one on the calendar to do things for them??? Not me. So really to me it's just another day. I do have a nephew who was born on 2/14.
I think these types of "holidays" cause more heartache than happiness for most people. A lot of women expect their men to go all out if they love them on this day. That's sad. I use to feel like that also. Probably because I never really felt loved by the person I was with on every other day.
Nowadays I feel loved and appreciated every single day...not always by the kids but I still know they do. My husband isn't the most romantic person on the planet, but always makes me feel so very blessed by knowing that he thinks I'm special and will love me as long as he lives.
So bloggers, if you don't get a dozen roses, or a box of chocolates, or that fancy diamond you were hoping for don't let it make you feel unloved. If you're blessed with a special someone that makes you happy and brings laughter to your life that's a true gift and means you're their Valentine every single day of the year!
{I know I tend to whine and moan about things lately...but when I heard this song today on the radio it reminded me of all I have to be thankful for }
Blessed sung by Martina McBride
I get kissed by the sun each morning Put my feet on a hardwood floor I get to hear my children laughing Down the hall through the bedroom door Sometimes I sit on my front porch swing Just soaking up the day I think to myself, I think to myself This world is a beautiful place
I have been blessed And I feel like I've found my way I thank God for all I've been given At the end of every day I have been blessed With so much more than I deserve To be here with the ones that love me To love them so much it hurts I have been blessed
Across a crowded room I know you know what I'm thinking By the way I look at you And when we're lying in the quiet And no words have to be said I think to myself, I think to myself This love is a beautiful gift
It was a quiet cold day here in B-town Michigan. The snow looked so pretty earlier. I never left the house today, the mail is even still out in the mailbox. Nothing but bills and junkmail so no reason to walk out to the road for that.
I washed clothes, made dinner, did dishes, and let the dogs in and out a half dozen times. Real zinger of a day . I played about 10 games of scrabble (literati) in yahoo with my mom & sister and a couple with strangers. I watched Elizabethtown on DVD also. Very good movie. Made me laugh and cry. If the NASCAR race gets rained out I might watch it again with my husband cause he said "you watched it without me" when he got home from a carpentry job he's been doing for friends. There were no guns or shooting in it so I figured he wouldn't care if I watched it without him. And I'm sure he didn't care and was just saying that like it really hurt his feelings
Well..pretty boring post..huh?? Sorry...my day was pretty boring!
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